thank you and please

Thank you to my dear friends and readers who have reached out in this time of uncertainty, even more uncertain for you, I suppose, as I haven't said much... On Monday, I did finally get through to the nurse who gave us the news that my blood test of December 21st came back irregular. I just knew from her voice in the message something wasn't good. In short, it put us in the highest risk category for 'neural tube defects', oh so startling and upsetting to hear. The better news was that our scan of December 28th came back normal and showed no spinal or head defects, but that was not a very detailed scan and they would like to do a more detailed one at Mass General. And so, right now, all we can do is pray and wait and pray and hope. The nurse practitioner said they'd schedule it by today, but so far, no call, and so instead of being all-consumed, teary and fearful like I was on Monday, I am trying so hard to be positive, prayerful and confident in our little one who has, to date, been quite the perfect inhabitant. This miracle of new life is so complex, we know, but also, so routine, as thousands of new lives and healthy lives are created each day. There are so many false positives out there, so many inaccuracies the nurse stated could affect the bloodwork, so we're holding onto that, and praying for more clarity - good clarity - soon. We have an appointment with our doctor tomorrow, so that, if nothing else yet, will be good to ask questions. Thank you friends for reaching out and caring. Thank you, even more, for your prayers and support. Please, please, don't stop. Every miracle requires believers and those who will it to happen. Every new life is a miracle. Sometimes I don't know why I write, but it's a journal, a therapy, and an outreach to those of you too far away to be here by my side. Oh gosh, I wish you were all here by my side. I'll write again soon...