4.02.2012

 
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1.20.2012

I didn't know I *wasn't* pregnant

On the other hand, it just occured to me, with all the baking that's been going on around here these past few weeks, maybe this big ole bump is really just a big ole bump. Sammy's quite the chef, you know...









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1.19.2012

Occupation Overdue

There's just something about being overdue that sits well with me. I get a lot of sorry looks from friends and strangers alike when they see me, day in and day out at the grocery store, the nursery school, the Y, but I tell you that despite the crazy excitement I feel about meeting this newest little one, unlike with my first pregnancy when I willed the end to come each day, this second and third time around, every hour, with or without my third little babe in arms, feels like a gift. Until a couple days ago, I had snapped just one picture of my belly, way back during our Indian summer at the beginning of October:

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And while I love it to pieces, poor D3 (who may just be a girl like her older sister Sammy, obsessed with tracking every moment of her young life from bump to Bogota, Mummy's side to Marblehead) was not going to have much to fuel her boatloads of questions like her big sis. So, I asked dear Tia to take these two shots below. It was not overly thought out. Only shirtless, because lunch had just been had which means tomato seeds were spurted everywhere and pink and white yogurt was dripped head to toe, and there were only two snaps taken, but I just love them... You look in the mirror and know your bump is immense, your womanly shape morphed into some holy but unsightly blimp, but you will never, ever regret these shots. Even 35lbs heavier, an agonizing pregnancy in so many ways, I still give great thanks for my body that houses these sweet hearts so safely. And as for being skin to skin with my three babies... sigh...

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It's hard not to feel ridiculously lucky and loved when I look at this. It's hard not to see each moment with this delightful duo as a gift, as we head towards 41 weeks with their littlest soon-to-be-sidekick. I'm 3cm and 50% effaced which means just about nothing, have an induction date set for next week, but quite honestly, I'm just happy for today. For an extra hour to cuddle my little ones, snuggle up to my hubby, dream of my healthy and happy baby bundled up away from these scattered snowflakes, all while emptying one more kitchen drawer for a deep clean and purge before things get a little busier for a while. You forget how quickly reality resumes, how soon what's new and daunting will become what we've always known, but I remember feeling this same grateful, peaceful way in my overdue days with Landon, even when I couldn't imagine loving another little body as I loved my sweet Sammy. Every next trip to Target or Stop and Shop that should have been my 'last stock-up'. Every extra lunch and play with good friends that should have carried me through the weeks of hibernation. Every chance to just lose myself in the children I already birthed, who already have my entire heart. All of that seemed so sweet. And this time around it does, too.

And Lord knows, if I hadn't made it to today, I'd have never found time to write any of this down...

Yes, I'm anxious. About the pain and process, the unknowns and exhaustion, but I'm far more calm than I was with either Samara or Landon and for that, I'm grateful. How lovely it is to know the hospital, know the doctors, know some nurses, know what both a C-Section and normal deliveries entail, respect them both and know that I can survive either remembering what really matters. How blessed it is to be only as worried as any parent is about hearing that little cry fill the room, to see for myself that the precious one who has measured well in every ultrasound is indeed as perfect and healthy as expected. Having had such different and troubling news delivered to us along the way with Landon and been left with such questions about what troubles he would have, and to have never even seen my naked baby, Samara, or heard that sweet sound the day she was born, I know what luxuries, what miracles, what immeasurable gifts these are. Just thinking of what lies ahead, I try to focus on all that goodness that awaits, and try not to lose sight of what all of this is really about. A gift of LIFE, our third little life created out of such love, that will add so much to our family, straight to us from God. How we got so lucky... I'll never know.

And so, Mummy is home from England and waiting at the other end of the phone, just around the corner. Two different and best friends are lined up, ready to play the day away with SnL if need be, so if Daddy is at work, Mummy can be with me. We have emerged from the holiday-hype and have lost the dark circles under our eyes. Little Landon is sleeping through the night and Samara has head-butted her 2 or 3 weeks of thunderous threes out the window. Steve had caught up on the month of shortened days and interrupted work and is ready for his most phenomenal two weeks of paternity leave. He is, as ever, the most incredible husband and father and I almost wish I could loan him out to pregnant ladies everywhere as I feel so selfish keeping him to myself. I have got over my ugly, indulgent cold that left me feeling just plain gross for days and days on end. We have no hiccups in our giddy-ups and we await this littlest Dosch with full hearts, great energy and so much thankfulness.

And if I let myself really imagine it, believe it, achieve it, my eyes well up with tears, my arms get covered with goosebumps and I know that what lies ahead is beyond my wildest dreams. I just can't wait to know if it's a boy, if it's a girl, and to share that most magical moment with the man I adore more than anything in this world, and maybe my mama too...

Oh how blessed we are. The rest is just details. And I will share them soon...

1.05.2012

Wee Hour Loving

Every morning, +/- 4:48am when you just don't think you can be ready for the day to start, this happens, and you realize, Yes. I. Can.

12.19.2011

Santa at arm's length



If I'd had a normal lens on my camera, the two feet or so between Miss Samara and Mr. Santa wouldn't seem so great, but at least we captured one child with Dear Old Clause this Christmas. The other, well, imagine hyper hysteria! Almost laughable, quite certainly cruel on camera hysteria. Poor old Landy. So stoic, yet so sensitive. These two shots were taken at our community center sing-a-long where Santa passed out candycanes to one and all before asking innocent young children to sit on his scary old lap. Good deal. And this below is Samara's so-nervous, I might invert my tongue and throw-up smile. Good times!



12.16.2011

Making room....



We traded in one white wagon for another and upgraded to the fabulous Honda Odyssey in December. It is a love bug and with room for all five of us PLUS, we couldn't be happier!

10.31.2011

Halloween 2011


Dorothy and Toto stole the show. Or at least our hearts.







There were back-up costumes, too!


And great times with the best of friends...


10.15.2011

Who says the honeymoon's over?



Oh, the bliss. And the gift, the grace, the beauty of knowing you married the BEST guy and that 5 years married, you can be even more crazy in love than you were way back when.

We had the absolute joy of voyaging to Captiva for 3 days this past week. My dear, dear, dear parents watched our dear, dear, dear children (yes, their matching levels of dearness proved to be a perfect match) and I left my tears and troubles on the airplane to spend such a glorious re-honeymoon with my better half. There really is no way to explain what a big deal it was, what a privilege we had, what gratitude we felt to my parents, what pride we had in our little ones for being so much more than fine without us, what magic we lived on our island getaway. So, I will share just a few photos so that you can maybe understand and mostly so that I can look back day in and day out, right here, while I start looking forward to our 10 year return...

Steve on our bedroom's balcony....



Out for dinner night one... cheese :)



Nothing to do but sand, sun, swim and smile together.





Ah, and we swam with dolphins... maybe it was a dream...



I snap pics of my feet because they are not the size of whales, yet.



Sunsets and sunrises, from our room and from the beach... breathtaking...



The gorgeous South Seas Resort. You should go...


10.06.2011

16 months old today



and still the cheekiest, grubbiest, most adorable little monkey.

Landon can walk, run, say just Mama, Dada, Digger and Nah, and read 40 books in one sitting without getting bored. He's obsessed with animals and trucks and being dirty and it turns out boys really are that straight forward. Feed 'em and run 'em. That's the truth. The little tike still wakes up 1-5+ times a night and is up for good between 4:30 and 5. Grrrr... But his awesomeness and his highs are so ridiculously out of this world that we forgive him all his terrors and troubles and feistiness. This is him, just after lunch today, hiding my precious things, causing general mayhem but still looking so ridiculously angelic and sweet.

People always say, he's just so stinking cute.

I say, it's a good thing, too!

God knew these monkeys better be darn delicious on the outside so that we didn't devour them when their insides were causing all sorts of disasters!

I love you, Landini. You keep me on. my. toes.

10.02.2011

Indian Summer

What a gift. This Indian Summer. These pictures below are what early October looked like in 2011 around New England. Landon only learned to walk in August so the extra long summer sure made beach days even more fun. How lucky we are.











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